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Michael McLeod
Dave: I made some fixes to update that story and reposted it.
Honestly I felt like a kid meeting Chief Billie and getting to write about him. Of all the people, hundreds I guess, that I got to write about, from movie stars to mobsters, I'd choose him as my favorite. It was an honor to write about an authentic seminole indian medicine man. Honestly I'd call it a sacred honor. He was a sweet soul but an angry one. I felt like a little kid in his presence. There were times that he scared me - his anger, hell, righteous anger, was palpable but futile. I was touched by how that professor described him -- the one I quoted at the very end of the story who compared him to Don Quixote, the tragic dreamer.
But mosty when I think about him I think about his anger. He kept it in but then again as I think I said there was at least one moment when I was alone with him somewhere in the woods and I almost dropped a sacred antique carved ceremonial staff of some sort and a positively primal look of anger came into his eyes and I swear in that moment I saw centuries of pissed off native americans looking at me. sure i was wrapped up in the story and my imagination was at full bore but yes the thought of getting scalped right then and there by the generations of pissed off warriors he represented - i'm exagerrating a little but not much. the fear was irrational but visceral. i really did, at some level, experience - well lets just say vividly imagined - getting killed by billy and the spirits of pissed off seminoles right then and there. i was that immersed and that keyed up by the story i was immersed in. Let me sum up the feeling: I felt their anger just as surely as if they were invisible and silent but absolutely present around me, glaring, angry, a silent crowd from ages past staring angrily at the white man in their midst. I should have included it in my story but I figured people would think me crazy.
looking back now i wish i had put that in the story. but i was too embarrased. i didnt soil myself when it happened but i sure as shit shivered. Logic, of course, tells me that i was deeply involved in the story and that helped fire my imagination to get a little bit too fired up. signed, wimpy paleface journalist
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